Avery cover photo

Just five more days was all we had with him.

When I took Avery to see the cardiologist last Monday, I knew his heart condition would shorten his life. But I had been thinking we'd have him with us for at least several more months, if not longer. Five months, maybe. Not five days.

On Friday morning, as we were letting the dogs out, Alayne noticed Avery didn't seem to be doing well — kind of listless, not himself. He'd had diarrhea in his crate overnight, so we wrapped him in a towel and carried him outside. Alayne set him on the ground, and he just keeled over and lay on his side. She scooped him up, held him for a bit, and he seemed to perk up. She set him down again, and this time he was able to stand. He did his business (more diarrhea), and then just stood there, looking weak. Alayne picked him up and carried him into the house; I fixed up some bedding in a large open crate we call a "boat," and she set him down in it.

We could tell something was clearly wrong, and I told her I would go call the cardiologist and find out what Plan B was. Alayne stayed behind to pet him and love on him. I put two more dogs out on my way down the hall, and then went into the living room to find the cardiologist's business card. Just as I was heading up the stairs to my office to call him, Alayne came through the door. "He just died," she said, tears running down her face. 

I was floored. Avery had seemed to make progress on his new heart medications, and our only thought was getting him rechecked by the cardiologist in two weeks. We never expected to lose him this soon.

Alayne and I walked down the hall way to the dog room. Avery was curled up on the bedding, looking like he was just sleeping. But he was gone. We wrapped the towel around him again and Alayne carried his body over to the twin bed along the wall. She sat down on the bed, cradling him and crying. Alayne had really understood Avery and his emotional needs; she had been so patient in working with him, and he responded to her like no one else.

Avery had been on the cover of our 2011 winter/holiday newsletter — that's the photo above. I opened his story by writing, "Some dogs just never seem to get a break." After the awful life he'd suffered — beaten by people, attacked by other dogs, eyes painfully swollen from untreated glaucoma — he'd been turned into a Georgia shelter and was scheduled for euthanasia. That's when Avery finally got his break and came to us. Yet tragically, he was with us for just ten short months. 

Rather than recount his full story in this blog post and explain how far he'd come, here's the page from the newsletter if you haven't already read it — click on the image for a larger version:

Avery's story from newsletter
Avery had indeed made the most of the break he got. But he deserved so much more.

 

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110 responses to “We Lost Avery”

  1. Barbara Bessey Avatar
    Barbara Bessey

    Alayne and Steve…God bless you for giving little Avery your unconditional love and affection. He is now with God’s Angels running and playing in good health. He will be waiting at heaven’s gate for you someday with his tail wagging. Bless you both for your love and kindness.

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  2. Shirley * James/Portland, OR Avatar

    SWEET, SWEET Avery. So glad he knew true love for the last of his life. SO SAD and yes, the best 10 months of his life. My heart is so very heavy!

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  3. MaryGrace Brown Avatar
    MaryGrace Brown

    It breaks my heart to here of Avery’s passing and I am sure that he knew how loved he was. I am so,so,so sorry. words cannot really express.

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  4. Carla Polastro-Nigro Avatar

    I do agree that Avery would have deserved to live with you for much longer than 10 months, but his short time at RDF was just heaven on earth for him. And he was with his beloved Alayne until the very end.
    I don’t know how you can cope with so many painful losses, but thank you SO much for keeping on fighting the good fight. God bless your brave and loving souls!

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  5. Lindsay Avatar
    Lindsay

    Avery hit you particularly hard didn’t he – we love them all, but some get that little bit further under your skin.
    My deepest sympathies and thanks to you and Alayne and I’m sure Avery is caring for you now too.

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  6. Jessica, NL Avatar
    Jessica, NL

    For Alayne, that was THE best moment to stay with him for some gentle loving, divine timing honey.
    I’m sorry you lost him and I’m happy that he found you both. A turnaround into love is always worth it, even for an hour or a day, and these ten months have been heaven for him, but now the goodbye is all the more heartbreaking for you…

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  7. Barb Ribinski Avatar
    Barb Ribinski

    I’m so glad Avery got the chance to experience love and happiness before his life ended. So sorry he couldn’t have been with you longer.

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  8. Glenda Avatar
    Glenda

    I wish I could make it better for you; but know I can’t. But I will be crying with you. Mostly for the gratitude for the wonderful, unconditional love, patience, warmth and kindness, Avery finally found when he came home to you!

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  9. DarcC Avatar

    I’m so sorry for your loss of Avery, but so glad to hear that he had Alayne with him as he passed. My condolences to you all.

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  10. Sandra Avatar

    Yes, he deserved so much more love, cuddles and so much less pain, fear,… At least he had you and Alaine to love him like he deserved. I am so so sorry for your loss.

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  11. Sonja Matzkanin Avatar
    Sonja Matzkanin

    I am so sorry to hear about Avery. As I sit here with tears running down my face.I just want to say Thank you Steve and Alayne for what you do. You are both so special.

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  12. Toby Preston Avatar
    Toby Preston

    Rest in peace Avery. So sorry for your loss. You gave him a wonderful home and did everything possible for him.

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  13. Kristi Gross Avatar
    Kristi Gross

    Alayne and Steve, my heart is breaking for sweet Avery and for you. I believe with all my heart that all dogs go to Heaven, and that Avery is there now, running and playing, with a healthy body, eyes that see, and no fears. I pray for your comfort as you grieve this special little guy. Sending hugs & love from Texas.

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  14. Leslie Avatar
    Leslie

    His enlarged heart was at least filled full of love for his last months. Thank you for doing that for him and for all that you do.

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  15. Jan in Winnipeg Avatar
    Jan in Winnipeg

    So sorry to hear about Avery and so sorry for both you and Alayne losing him so suddenly. His life with you released him from all that had gone before. He died a happy, more confident dog knowing that he was safe, protected and loved.

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  16. Christopher Davis Avatar
    Christopher Davis

    I am very sorry to learn that Avery has gone. His break did indeed come late, but not too late for him. He discovered that he hadn’t forgotten how to be happy and you went into his world to help him along that path, sometimes by just leaving him in peace…at others by doing what he showed you he needed to have done. Thank you and thanks to him for teaching us how to live.

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  17. Amber L Avatar
    Amber L

    Poor little boy 😦 I’m so thankful he lingered long enough for you to be with him in his last few moments…

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  18. Janet in Cambridge Avatar
    Janet in Cambridge

    RIP, sweet Avery. They were the best 10 months of your life. And you got to relax and be a real dog and enjoy love and acceptance with Steve and Alayne and all your brother and sister dogs. Kisses on your little face.

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  19. Barb Avatar

    I’m so glad that he had the time with you that he did, and finally go to know human love. I have a cocker girl who’s story is very similar to Avery’s- she was so scared and would pee if we tried to pick her up. It was months before she would even make eye contact with us, and even longer before she would wag her tail and play.
    She’s a much happier girl now, much like Avery was with you. I’m so grateful for all that you do for these wonderful dogs (and cats and horses!)

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  20. Barbara Techel Avatar

    Though so very sad sweet Avery is no longer here, I am comforted knowing he had an exceptional 10 months of unconditional love with you and Alayne. My heart is with you both.

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  21. Colleen and Wes Avatar
    Colleen and Wes

    Please find comfort in the thought that Avery’s last emotion was feeling total love and safety in the arms of his very favorite person.

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  22. Valerie Avatar
    Valerie

    OH NO….tears are just streaming down my face right now….my heart just breaks for you all…Avery was so blessed to be so loved by you…and you were so blessed to have been loved by him….God Rest you sweetest Avery….much love, Valerie xo

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  23. Chloe Avatar

    Run free sweet Avery. You were dearly loved by Steve and Alayne and so many of us too.
    You blessed us all with your presence and many hearts are breaking now over your passing.

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  24. Sue Wasko Avatar
    Sue Wasko

    You are both angels for doing what you do for animals. It has to be so hard when you lose them. How wonderful it was for Avery to know he had a loving family the last months of his life, RIP sweet furbaby!

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  25. Melissa Avatar

    My heart goes out to you both for all of the pain you must go through every time you lose one of your precious animals. Thank you for all you did for Avery. You gave him a chance to know love before he left this earth.

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  26. Linda Avatar

    I am so sorry. Rest in peace, sweet Avery.

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  27. Toni Ezell Avatar
    Toni Ezell

    RIP – He died knowing what love was really all about! That’s all that matters!!

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  28. Carolyn Kupferschmid Avatar
    Carolyn Kupferschmid

    We never have them long enough. Thankfully Avery knew love in his lifetime. So very sorry for your loss.

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  29. Dawn Avatar
    Dawn

    I’m so sorry to hear about sweet Avery.

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  30. Dee Avatar
    Dee

    Sorry for your loss of sweet Avery. How wonderful that he was at home with Alayne when he left. Even more wonderful was the last 10 months of his life in a home where people loved him and gave him a good life.
    Thanks for what you all do.

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  31. Margaret Avatar
    Margaret

    I’m so very sorry Steve and Alayne! Rereading Avery’s story, it’s crystal clear that your love and patience to teach Avery that he indeed could be happy, after his terrible times before your care, were the most priceless gift one could give him. I only wish he could give you more waggles and smiles. You were what he desperately needed. His heart has touched us all. Thank you for your kindness and loving care.

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  32. Lisa Lashaway Avatar
    Lisa Lashaway

    I’m so sorry. Avery had so much love in the last months of his life…so that’s what he’ll know as he moves on. That he was loved, loved, loved.

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  33. Diane Borden, Chehalis, WA Avatar
    Diane Borden, Chehalis, WA

    Such a two sided sword, this work you do. The joy of giving such TLC to such gracious, forgiving creatures, and seeing them respond with health and happiness is your reward. But you have to face grief so many times a year, and this is really your special gift to the animal world, your willingness to go through it with them.
    I cry with you each time you loose one. Sweet little Avery was finally blessed with a peaceful exit from this world to the next. Blessing to you both for the willingness to provide such love, even tho it is coupled with such grief for you both.

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  34. Ruth Avatar
    Ruth

    Such sad, sad news – my heart goes out to both of you. May it give your hearts some comfort to know Avery knew he was cherished by you. Rest in peace, little one.

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  35. Debbie Burke Avatar
    Debbie Burke

    Dogs live in the moment. You made his ten months all moments of love and safety. You are wonderful, giving, unselfish people. If dogs are man’s best friend, you, Steve and Alayne, are dogs’ best friends.
    Hugs to you in this sad time.
    Debbie

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  36. Linda Murphy Avatar
    Linda Murphy

    Very sorry and sad for you. Even tho it was only 5 days, he had love and care for the first time. God Bless

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  37. Katy Avatar
    Katy

    I’m so sorry for the loss of little Avery, he looks so sweet in that picture. You guys are both so strong it is truly inspiring, Bless you!
    Katy

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  38. Tagati Avatar
    Tagati

    So sorry to hear about Avery. His time with you was short, but he definitely was loved and made comfortable.
    Hugs to you all.

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  39. Carol Moerth Avatar
    Carol Moerth

    Steve and Alayne, this one hurts even a simple blog reader at such a basic level that I can’t imagine how hard it has hit you who cared for him so dearly. My sincere sympathies. He knew joy through you – we all just wish it was longer.
    You should know that because of your work and the awareness of the needs of unwanted animals that you’ve raised in me – I adopted a rescue dog with medical needs from a shelter last year. I had previously only ever considered a dog from a breeder. My little Heidi is one more unwanted little dog receiving the medical care and the love she deserved – because of the work you do. So, indirectly, she is another RDF success story!

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  40. Phyllis Snow Avatar
    Phyllis Snow

    Oh, how sad! I was so hoping Avery could have years, not just short months with you. At least he died knowing that there are kind, loving people in this world and that he was not “all bad”. You must have spent many hours working for and with this beautiful, abused dog. Thank you for gently determining his needs and acting on them. It is so difficult for caretakers and family (of which you were both), particularly in these extra sad situations. You have my deepest sympathy.

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  41. Carolyn Leavitt Avatar
    Carolyn Leavitt

    I am so sorry for your loss. I know from our adopted dogs when each of them act in a special silly way with each of us that we made a strong and special bond with them. The connection is there. And you guys clearly make that difference with all the animals entrusted to you. There time sense is different. Their with you for their life time. And their lives with you are as good as a pets life can be! Feel better knowing that.

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  42. Ginette Avatar
    Ginette

    I am so sorry for your lossrip Avery

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  43. Tonya Allen Avatar
    Tonya Allen

    I’m so sorry. It’s really heartbreaking that he didn’t get more time to enjoy his new life. But at least you can be comforted by the knowledge that his last months were the best that you could make them, and at at the end he was surrounded by love and kindness.You made such a difference in his life, and I’m sure he appreciated every minute.

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  44. Kathleen Rivard Avatar
    Kathleen Rivard

    There has to be a special place in Hell for Avery’s former owner. Like you, I wish he had more time to know what love and kindness are about. Yet once again I hear myself saying how sorry I am for your loss.

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  45. Anne in FL Avatar
    Anne in FL

    Avery is one reason I vote everyday. So you can hopefully win more money to help make it possible to help more of the little Avery’s and Billy’s etc of this world. Not everyone is a good owner to their animals. I am glad you are here as a small safety net for some of the animals that need assistance. Thanks.

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  46. Linda Magee Avatar
    Linda Magee

    I am so thankful there are people like you who give unconditional love. His life with you may not have been long but he died knowing how much he was loved. A lucky little dog.

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  47. Nancy Longfield Avatar
    Nancy Longfield

    Dear Alayne and Steve–I’m so sorry about your loss of Avery–You two are so wonderful with the love you give to God’s furry creatures–Bless you ! Nancy and Ladybug in SC

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  48. Vicki Avatar
    Vicki

    All of our hearts ache for Avery and all he went through in his life.Caring people can not even imagine how someone could be so cruel to a sweet animal.It is indeed a blessing that the last months of his life was with the two of you, so the last he knew was comfort and love. Even when he died he was with Alyne, so he left being loved. I know I cried when I read the blog, so I can imagine how you two must feel. Again, thank you for what you do for all the animals in your care. I am so sorry for your loss.

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  49. Susie Yates Avatar
    Susie Yates

    So so sad to hear of your loss of dear sweet Avery! I know your hearts are painfully broken right now, but I hope you can cherish the love he brought into your lives, & even more so, the love you bestowed upon this beautiful creature of God’s.

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  50. bregda & boemsie (south africa) Avatar
    bregda & boemsie (south africa)

    I am so sorry Avery left so soon. Yet you gave him a wonderful gift: the freedom to be happy and safe. What a precious gift that is. Thank you for all you are, and as always: remember to be kind to yourself too. Hugs & love.

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